There are few things in the world harder than dealing with your childrens fears. Last night as I put Megan to bed we had the following conversation ...
Megan: Is daddy coming home tomorrow?
Me: No daddy isn't coming home for a while still.
Megan: Do I even have a daddy anymore?
I wanted to cry but instead I hugged her.
Me: OFCOURSE you still have a daddy - he's always going to be your daddy, but he has to help the good guys right now.
I wasnt prepared for the words that came out of her mouth next and I dont think any mother is.
Megan: Cause he has to help kill the bad guys?
These are words that I have never said in my house, I've never told my children that daddy is going kill anyone. I know my older children understand things alot better than I really want them to they know that daddy took a gun with him to Iraq and that guns kill. I know that my children spend time with other military kids whose parent share more information that I choose to share with my kids and that those kids tell other kids what they think they know. What I cant understand is why anyone would tell my 4 year that her daddy has to kill bad guys? If we werent a military family she would never have to think about things like this, but we are and she does and sometimes I just wish my kids could be kids without the worries that goes along with being a military family.